This Saturday, I went to a small alumni reunion which consisted only 4 people at San Diego. It was not my idea to join the crew, if it is up to me, I preferred to be alone and recuperate this weekend. Yet a well intended schoolmate arranged the gathering and had told the other two that I would also be there without letting me know first. Maybe I have been in US for long, I prefer my opinion be consulted first before people schedule anything that involves me. Found myself not being able to appreciate this schoolmate's arrangement, I had been sulking all the way in her car to San Diego. Yeah, bad attitude, but can not hide it.
There must be something called chemistry among people. It is strange that there are some people that you really like the first time you met, in their presence, you felt relaxed, excited, and accepted, the other person feels the same way about you too. It does not matter how long you have known each other, the recognition is almost instantaneous, and the friendship keeps going. Yet for other people, it really does not matter how often you see them, it is still hard to connect. It is not that you do not like each other, it is more like there are not enough chemistry to sat the fire, let it be fire of love or fire of friendship. I have known these two schoolmates years back, I know they are wonderful people, but have not talked to them much at all at school. It is the first time that I saw them after 10 years. The conversation is good, it is lovely to see their beautiful homes and children, and it is lovely. Maybe I am asking too much, asking for the heart felt connection with everyone in your life is just unrealistic. Am I a stuck up?
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